Today was yet another day which I pampered myself to a really cool snoozy late morning in bed. I did my devotions consecutively without fail for more than a week now. So proud of myself. I realized the trick is just to have an iphone by your bed. You know the time in the morning ( should you have the luxury of) where you lay in bed right after you wake up, contemplating the day ahead and basically when your thoughts are the most “zen” like? Yep, that’s when I find it the best to pray and to have my little convos with the big guy and do a bit of reading on the devotional plans I subscribe to. 

Well, I’m not afraid to admit, I haven’t been the most consistent believer of all times. But I guess at some point in life, perhaps by influence, you would feel this innate urge to get back on track. And the pro side to me not being an over zealous, churchy stereotype is that when I do want to get right with God, it comes from a rather honest place within me. Not because a bunch of people are observing me or because I’m trying to become the next ministry star. Of course I’m not going to classify everyone under that. But, yeah I think you get my drift. And for non-believers ? Don’t worry, I’m not going to pounce on you and try to convert you yet. I actually believe that I need to be able to walk the talk. So while God and I are doing some 1-1 remedial sessions for all the times I missed out, you are pretty safe.

So I’m actually in the midst of readjusting my life and hopefully learning to make wiser decisions that might help me grow in faith as well as a person.

Like I’m trying to not be bitter towards certain people. And prioritizing things that are important to me.

Though, honestly, it would be great if there was some company. But, I’m kinda finding my ground sans the awesome christian guys that I somehow eventually fall for but always break my heart. ( Don’t be alarmed. It’s only 2) That’s another story for another day.

In fact, I’ve made the thought of today “Faith and Patience”. I shan’t start preaching but it does make Valentines’ day seem a little less disconcerting. That said, please if you have intentions of asking me out (even as a friend), just throw me the question because I will not shy away from good company and a great time.

But while I embark on a new phase of life, I wave adieu to others. Well, hopefully not forever. I would like to be friends nonetheless. I met J today, and for those who know, J and I have had this thing since I was 16. And after seeing all my crazier-than-crazy antics, tears, joy and definitely more, we kinda reached this very comfortable level where we always thought was ideal but took so so long to achieve. I guess in some strange way, I’ll always have a soft spot for J like I’d care for him and stuff. Maybe, it’s the sheer familiarity. But, it’s kinda sad to think that I might only see him after a couple of years. (With him heading back to school in Perth and me heading for London later this year.)The fact’s still sinking in. Hey, as much as I do the whole ice queen swagger thing, I do treasure relationships a lot.

Well, on a consolation note, there is still skype.

Ahh I took wayy too long to type this entry. I need to start hitting the books and the good ol’ method of picking up vocabulary from the dictionary in preparation for my IELTS test.

Look out,there’s a feisty asian coming your way.